KarMel Scholarship 2008

 

Poem

“Ringtone”

By Conseeta Brown

 

 

 

Desciption of Submission: “This poem is about my undying love for a female who, although feels some attraction towards me, is afraid of being viewed as a homosexual individual. She doesn't really know how strongly I feel for her and we are just friends. I let my heart bleed throughout my poem on how she hurt me when she moved on and married, but how despite everything that happens between us, I still and will always love her.” - Conseeta

 

So there is this girl you can say I’m falling for

well, I'll admit that I adore already

but we haven't really just become spontaneously heavy

because I've known her since the 3rd grade

and we've continued to be steady friends

with no debates come no amends

but that was then, because now it depends

on what we're arguing about

fussing and fighting on frivolous accounts

then isolated like Mount Everest

never best to place love after pride

so I'd succumb, the cleverest move to coincide

with her passionate soul

I take a hold of her as she scolds me then

holds me, as the anger is pushed aside and I

collect my feelings like toll fees

she's my big ass baby

daily feening her

needing her

first round draft pick, got a damn team with her

set it off for my Bonnie, my Winter Bunny

my Chipmunk, Butta, my "fuck with her, you'll get your shit dunk"

my vision, my prize

my She-devil with the green eyes...

gorgeous green eyes like the canopy of the Amazon

think about them and lose control, trying to get a handle on

my glare when I'm with her, love pains hit me when I stare but

kills me when I can't, I view the forest and the trees

and if the sky wasn't blue, this is the color I'd want it to be

but it's better as the sea, with my heart tumbling

as the tides rise, time flies because we woke up in my car and

it was ten minutes till three, we grasp last dreams

both ready for the morning but mourning the separation it brings

things are different now, we're older and niching our own spaces

remembers our childhood as we grace each's faces

she traces the outline of her two favorite places

transferring energy and novas when we touch

much explosion over a clutch

and chaos with a kiss

I view brilliant bright that fades into darkness

as my heart missed a few subtle beats

unknown to me how serious is the sync

but an idea forms, and like a child, it is our own

taboo to outsiders, but fuck them. We're grown.

and the idea evolved into our butterfly relationship

people of the present can hate or trip

take a slip, you're dismissed from the abyss of this bond

she's already won and ladies, I'm done

we fall back and fade, and I'll gladly

fight the day to have the right to say

I'm the only star that takes her nights away

 

 

 

 

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