KarMel
Scholarship 2008
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Poem “Upperclass,
White and By Jessica Collette |
Desciption of Submission: “Poem about my experience and struggles with being
bisexual in the community I grew up in.” - Jessica
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Middle School: Very feminine: jewelry,
clothes, shoes, and make-up. Very pretty: boyfriends,
popular, and mysterious. Very wealthy: dad’s
engineering firm 6th Grade: pink
sundresses and white mary-jane shoes. A girl likes
me?? Very flattered. Do I like her? High School: Very feminine: jewelry,
clothes, shoes, and make-up. Very pretty: boyfriends,
popular, and mysterious. Very wealthy: dad’s
engineering firm 9th Grade: Discovered
masturbation. Mind drifts to women. Can’t stop thinking about girls. Am I gay?
Do I like girls? 10th Grade:
Yes. I like girls. Can I still like boys? Will my friends think I am weird? Will my
parents be okay with this? What will my brother and sister think? Came out
to friends and family. Are they as
okay with it as they say they are?—NO. Stuggle. Denial. Self-rejection. 11th Grade:
First Girlfriend. But I want the “normal” life. I want to have a husband and children. College: Very feminine: jewelry,
clothes, shoes, and make-up. Very pretty: boyfriends,
popular, and mysterious. Very wealthy: dad’s
engineering firm Boys and Girls. Boys or
Girls. Who am I? What do I like? I have an image to fit,
but I don’t. Bisexuality is not just
something that happens at frat parties to please boys. My friends think I am
weird. My mom thought it was a phase.
I am stuck in the middle... Constant conflict—sexual
identity is split in two. |