KarMel
Scholarship 2008
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Poem “Hope
Through the Darkness” By Emily Rence |
Desciption of Submission: “This is a poem that
describes the feelings I expereinced before I had told anyone that I was a
lesbian. From the moment I told my best friend, my life changed. The weight of
keeping this part of my life secret, of being concious of every word, every
pronoun I used, was lifted. It was truly as if I could finally breathe.” -
Emily
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Full of questions with no
answers Uncertainty surrounds me, Taking over my entire
being Swallowed up by darkness Drowning in a sea of fear
and confusion My life seems to spiral
downwards, out of control Further and further still Enveloped in blackness,
lost I reach out for something
to hold onto Someone to pull me out, to
rescue me from this loneliness To rescue me from myself But my hand comes back
empty, no one grabs hold Just then I realize-only I
can save me I’m the only one who can
set me free from my thoughts Instead of surrendering
myself, I have to fight I have to open my eyes and
get through this My body, once weighed down
by fear and confusion, is now light Seemingly floating through
the darkness Towards a light I hadn’t
seen before Although I can’t quite
reach it, I now know it’s there I know things can only go
up from here I have to hold on to that
flickering light, that fleeting hope I can’t give it up, not
now. Not when I’m so close Not when I can see the
end. Not when I’m so near to
finding what I’ve searched so long for. The end of darkness is the
beginning of me; it’s my chance to start again. My chance to live free
from the confining world of secrecy. |