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It WASN'T an overnight change, like the
weather forecast from sun to rain....... It WASN'T a choice I made.... The
only choice I made was to open that door that I so desperately wish to close
again.... It WASN'T like I woke up one day and say that I wanted to be
GAY.... It's not like I didn't pray..... I prayed to be what society calls "NORMAL" but these
feelings within wouldn't go away.... Why can't you understand that i'm still
the same person you knew before??? There's nothing different about me but the
fact that you know I AM GAY.... Acceptance is not what i'm asking for , but understandance is what I need.... Two different
indivduals is what we are but being human is what makes us the same.... Why
can't you see that your actions are putting me through so much pain??? My
feelings i'm forced to hold inside, never to be told to you again..... You
claim to say that i'm so miserable, but I guess that's only around you,
because to be honest when i'm any other place my skies are so BLUE..... You
claim to say that i'm following after friends of mine that you don't know but
does that mean i'm following after the friends of mine that you do??? I have
said this time and time again.... I'm NOT a
follower.... I feel NO NEED to follow after others... I AM MY OWN PERSON...
but I guess that's one thing you fail to see.... The clothing I wear does not
make me who I am..... Or something "YOU" claim i'm trying to be....
I know i am a FEMALE and that I am NOT trying to change, so please stop
coming to me with all these stereotypical things.... You are so wrapped up in
what societ things... It's like every stereotype you hear about gay people
sticks to your brain like permanent ink.... Forcing you to believe what most
homophobes want you to think..... There's nothing left for me to say... I've
said all that I felt needed to be said.... And still I continue to pray.....
But now I don't pray for GOD to change me... I pray for him to change you and
your ways......
P.S. I HAVE READ THIS TO A FEW OF MY FRIENDS AND
ALTHOUGH IT SAYS DEDICATED TO MY MOM.... WITH THE HELP OF SOME CLOSE FRIENDS
I'VE TO MADE UP MY MIND AND DECIDED TO DEDICATE THIS
TO ALL MOMS WHO DONT ACCEPT THEIR CHILD FOR WHO THEY ARE...... SO THIS GOES
OUT TO MY RAINBOW FAM WHO HAVE MOMS THAT DONT ACCEPT
THEM... IT'S DEDICATED TO ALL MOMS AS WELL
AS MINES....
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